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I think my husband is mad at me

My husband finally got his yard cleaned up – right on time. Yesterday he had court and they dismissed the case. YAY!
But now the city is on his case about his house. They want to inspect it to make sure it is suitable for living. It isn’t suitable for living, so he’s been blowing them [...]

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Frustrations

I’m continuously frustrated with my husband, and having mood swings because of that. I really think that I’m on the right medication, so the mood swings are triggered by my husband (or my reactions to him) rather than the bipolar disorder. However, I suspect that my disorder may make my emotions more pronounced.
It just seems [...]

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Foul Mood

Today I am in a very foul mood. I basically spent the weekend doing what my husband wanted. He was very demanding and by the time I got home tonight at 7:30pm, I was very exhausted. Still, I had to make dinner for my son, I had to do a load of laundry, and change [...]

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Ritalin Experience

Ritalin isn’t as good as Concerta. I’m on extended release, but it’s still wearing off after about 5 hours and then I feel tired again. I am thinking of splitting it in half, taking one half in the morning and one at noon like my son does with his Adderoll.
Still annoyed with husband. We talked [...]

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Husband is Mad at Me

He was mad at me because I wouldn’t stay the night with him tonight because I don’t want to be a part of the lie. He is pretending he is not staying there when he is, and I don’t agree with it. When I stay with him, I have to pretend too. So then he [...]

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Took Stuff to Husband’s House

I couldn’t wait because it was gnawing at me.
His message was about getting my car inspected, which I’ll do tomorrow.
Anyway, I took the dishes and stuff to his house along with a short letter. He wasn’t there. The letter read something like this:
“I am washing my hands of this house. This is your house, your [...]

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Fight with Husband

I fought with my husband on the phone today. He wanted me to continue to help him work on the house. I’m not doing it. He won’t let me throw anything away so it’s pointless. All I do is move crap from one place to another, accomplishing very little. Besides, the amount of junk and [...]

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Got a Job!

YAY!
I start on Sept 15th. It will be a week of training and then I start work. I forgot to ask if they pay for the training or not. It’s in a group home of disabled adults. I’ll basically be doing what I’m doing now, only I’ll be caring for 4 people instead of 1. [...]

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Going on Strike

I decided I am going on strike from my husband. I will not see him, or go to the flea market with him, or work at his house anymore. I hate going over there, I feel like I don’t accomplish much since I’m doing is rearranging stuff. I don’t think the house will ever get [...]

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Depressed

I feel depressed living at my parents’ house. This is normal for me to feel this way because my mother drives me nuts.
Now there is this feud between my husband and my father. My mother keeps inviting my husband over and he won’t come over because Dad does not want him here. Mom won’t stop [...]

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